Just when I think "the last straw" has come, another one falls. Now, I know my husband loved me, but, if HE thinks the following about me, what do others think? It's just left me worn out.
Yesterday, I was acknowledging to my husband that he probably has more fun where he volunteers than he does being at home with me, because I don't "tease" well. I can't remember, but, fool that I am, I probably asked him what the "difference" is. Somehow, he ended up telling me that I don't get the jokes/teasing in time. And I said, "So, I'm slow?" He affirmed that and said something about response time. "So, I'm slow verbally?".
THEN I remember he said, "Not just verbally."
It took me awhile. Then, slowly, I realized he also meant facial expressions, etc. too.
I kind of just let the subject go, but, it bothered me all night and all through this morning while I was trying to work on the church bulletin and be part of NYU's forum that they set up because of the outcry over their "ransom notes". In my mind, I ended up replaying some of the horrors of my grade school experience. So that, by the time Husband came home, I was not only stressed out over NYU's seemingly cluelessness about adult gifted mental health challenged persons, but, I had also come to the realization that my husband, if we had gone to the same schools, could have easily been one of my tormentors.
When I asked him if he remembered about yesterday, of course, he didn't. Until I mentioned "slow". THEN he remembered. He called me "not interactive". So, I asked him what happens to the smart kid in class, the one who the teacher points out to the others as being somehow "gifted" once those kids find the weakness of being "slow" in human interaction.
"They get picked on".
Bingo.
All through adult life too.
Gets old and tiring.
And, the alleged professionals stand around scratching their most likely guilty heads, wondering why we "abnormals" get so depressed.
Duh!
